So This is 30
I have changed so much from the little over emotional shy girl I once was. I grew up with not a lot, with my mother working full time and a father who was in and out of jobs living in apartments with half my life with no car. I was made fun of, of the things I didn't have and always felt left out. I vowed to myself that I would make a better life and it shaped me to be more compassionate to others.
I graduated with a degree in Criminology with no debts because my mother taught me that if I didn't have the funds then it wasn't happening. Both her and I saved and paid my way through school. I worked full time for most of the year while going to school full time. It was difficult and many times I almost gave up but kept fighting because there was always fire in me pushing me.
I have always loved travelling and another thing I didn't do when I was little since we didn't have a lot of money. When I started my first job I always made sure to take 2 weeks off to travel places. I have been all over Europe, Mexico, States and I am so so thankful for the amazing opportunities that I have had.
I look back at my 30 years and I get way to emotional. I am so dam proud of myself. I built a business from nothing and have watched it grow more and more very year. I have given everything in to my photography business and now turning 30 and re-launching with so much more I can offer I fully feel like I have found my calling and it feel hella good.
Everyone has a story, we all have been through rough roads and we continue to fight through living out our dreams and our goals. But what I can say that is when you go through enlightenment periods, you start to learn more and more about yourself. You stop looking on to others for approval or for anything for that matter and you turn and look deeper into yourself. 20's have been a huge enlightenment period. I have changed so much in the ways that I treat myself and others around me. I no longer keep things inside and explode like a bomb, I don't take things to personally anymore and I sure as hell don't take crap from others. Thats another thing that happens during your enlightenment period, you get this crazy sense of yourself and the things you want and don't want. The things that no longer serve you, you get rid of. Wether it be that amazing Chanel bag, those ripped jeans that you wore for like 5 years straight or that horrible so called friend that shit talks about you and then is fake to your face. Then you make room for all the cool stuff like the new and improved bag that holds more stuff and cost half that price or the new jeans that are spandex so you can wear them even during woman week and your new friend who is the coolest and honest raddest person around who has your back and isn't shitty!
My friend you can have it all.
A lot of people ask me how I was able to build my little business to what is today and for the most part its all been a crazy ride that I tend to forget - maybe because I am just so happy now or maybe cuz I don't want to think about all the heartache in the beginning. Whatever the case, the one thing I have learned through life is this:
ASK FOR IT.
If you just put yourself out there, the only thing you have to lose is...NOTHING. If you started out with nothing then you have nothing to lose! There is no gamble! You just ask for it. Last week I asked a company oif they wanted to work work with me... they said no.. and not a nice no, like a really mean no. But guess what instead of crying or getting pissed I just decided it wasn't going to ruin my day and that I was the one who asked. But get this? The same day I got back 3 yes's! from other people I messaged!
There really is no secret to this. Turning 30 was a bit daunting at first but I embrace it all with open arms because if this is 30, then my friend I'll take it.
Photos by Chelsey Luren Portraits