So here it goes another blog! Even though I may not get a lot of readers, one of my new years resolutions was to blog/write more.. for myself and hopefully for others to be inspired.
So I recently had the opportunity to partner with Bryan Todorovic Photography and Gemma from Gems Hair and Makeup for a head-shot photo-shoot.
I needed new head-shots for upcoming gigs and website promos & Gemma did a super fantastic job! She was on time and she listened to what I wanted and gave me a natural amazing look! I am so happy to be partnering with such a great company and excited for the future business ahead! Bryan a lifelong friend and partner photographer rocked my shots! I wanted to have some serious business shots, a few playful ones with me and my camera and for my new add on to my business, my digital and custom prints.
When I got back some of my shots I was shocked… have I gained that much weight? While the photos and makeup were amazing, … when I saw what I looked like,. I was filled with lots of negative emotion of my weight.
You see, I have not been very happy with my weight lately and its no ones fault but myself. Working crazy hours in retail and then owning a business on the side really takes a toile. But, that’s what I wanted right? I wanted my business to flourish, to be noticed, to essentially “ make it” in this ever changing and competitive market. Why cant I have everything? Healthy lifestyle amazing job, time for everyone and myself? It seems as if I have to make a choice and choose between seeing people and going out, my health or my business… I shouldn’t have to sacrifice my health just so I can have a successful business.
So here I am 148 pounds later blogging about my weight and eating a bowl of ice-cream listening to boys to men … have I hit rock bottom? The answer is no… I have an amazing husband, family friends.. so what if I have some love handles? … nothing that Photoshop cant fix! I kid I kid! But seriously, I need to take care of my health for sure and I am aware that something went wrong while building my business. My business isn’t everything and I need to step back and take care of myself first and foremost. I need to spend more time with my little family and I need to do more things for myself… ultimately your business will grow when you grow .. but if you are stuck unhappy and neglecting yourself, your business wont grow either…
So now that I have bored you with my life I am here to tell you if you have a business or you are thinking about starting a business DO NOT NEGLECT OR CHOOSE to ignore something else to make room for your business. You shouldn’t have to choose one or the other. For a business to grow you must adapt and create a whole new area for it and make sure you have balance… of course I am not perfect. Who would want to be? But I need to learn to love myself and if my insides are not reflecting my outsides then I cant be my true and my amazing self. Although I am unhappy about my weight, I can change that and be more proactive.. The beauty of owning your own business and being your own boss is you are able to say no and make time for yourself. Ultimately you need to love yourself and have faith in yourself. If you are your number one fan then others will want to join the amazing that is you. But you must love yourself first… when you have a buisness you are selling yourself and want others to enjoy your product as much as you love making it… so my advice? LOVE YOURSELF, LOVE HANLES AND ALL!
Next week I will be exploring the first stages of starting your own business and the steps I took to start it <3
Love always your friendly neighbourhood Allyson lady